Dear Redneck,

So much has been going on in my life these past two weeks. And I hate that I can't just call you up and tell you about it. I can't tell you about the funny stories at work. I can't tell you about the annoying kid down the street that busted his ass riding his bike. And I can't tell you how much fun I had this past weekend but I missed you terribly.

Things have drastically changed between us. It's hard getting use to but I know eventually I will get there...we both will. It's just really sad to me whenever a perfectly good freindship is ruined because we decided to go "there". I don't regret it. I just wish we found each other sooner.

Your next relationship will probably be the one. Because usually, after my relationships, the guys ALWAYS end up with a girl that he spends the rest of his life with. So, if you're a guy, wanting to find that special someone...you have to go through me first. All I ask is for one night of amazing sex before you dump me. :)

My Love for you is non-existent

Sometimes I find myself wondering if he's thinking about me. I haven't written him back or had any kind of communication with him for about 2 weeks now. I know I shouldn't write him back or even call him. I went to Clemson's first game yesterday and I couldn't help but to think how much fun the Redneck would have at these games. I miss him terribly. But I have to change the direction of my life and that direction doesn't include him.

I have to get over this. I really do. It's just so fucking hard. This is the time I wish I had the chemical makeup of a man...because they just don't fucking care. Why do I care so much? Why does he feel a need to privately talk about me to deal with his issues towards me? Why do I hold onto memories? BECAUSE I'M A GIRL...and we do stupid shit like this.