Break Ups Suck

The hardest part about breaking up, isn't the break up... it's having to deal with it.

I absolutely hate the fact that we are not friends anymore. I miss our conversation and banter. I can't believe that at one point you were the most important person in my life and now it's hard for me to even call you.

A second time around...

I let you come back into my life a 2nd time. I admit... it was all too easy. I made it that way for you. But I wanted you here with me. Patience is a virtue... I know that now.

You're such a jerk. I'll just get right to it. You voice had a strange tone that I have never heard. You were cold. And you had that look on your face.

You talked about how we don't talk or see each other every day. You wanted space... I thought that's what I was giving you. I wasn't pushing you away.

We didn't even go see Swami Gone Bananas.

Cold. That's what I felt from you. There wasn't any kind of warmth, not towards me anyway.

Something was going on. You've never acted like that towards me.

You said you figured you would let it die itself down. You're a coward.
You wanted something from me.
So you pursued me...
But you're not strong enough to have it.
In a way... it makes you a coward.

You threw us away like it was an everyday thing.

I hate you for that.

I regret everything.
I regret you coming back into my life.
I regret every second I thought about you.
I regret every second I cared about you.
I want to take back all of my kisses to you.
I want to take back all of my love for you.

I hate you.

Full Feldged

I'm sitting here at adorable Carroll Street Cafe, sipping on coffee with nothing to do the day after the 4th. The guy I've been seeing has all of the sudden become distant. This has happened before. He then told me a week later he needed "space". When a guy says "he needs space", a girl translates that into "he doesn't want to see my fat ass and ugly face ever again". In this case he really did need space. 2 months later we're back together. Although this time is different. I don't know if it's different for him but I do know, without a doubt, it's different for me. I'm more insecure about everything. And my heart isn't out there like before.