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I'm sitting here at adorable Carroll Street Cafe, sipping on coffee with nothing to do the day after the 4th. The guy I've been seeing has all of the sudden become distant. This has happened before. He then told me a week later he needed "space". When a guy says "he needs space", a girl translates that into "he doesn't want to see my fat ass and ugly face ever again". In this case he really did need space. 2 months later we're back together. Although this time is different. I don't know if it's different for him but I do know, without a doubt, it's different for me. I'm more insecure about everything. And my heart isn't out there like before.