So I'm sitting here waiting in Dallas. Waiting, for what. I don't know. My stomach feels sour. I have taken two Zantac 75s. But I don't think it's helping. I look cute. My hair isn't flat and I don't think I stumbled into bad lighting. Anticipation is a bitch and it can be very cruel. Will I have fun with him? Or will he piss be off like so many of them do. Will he say something to put me off or will I be the one that will be put off. It's meeting a friend for the second time that is agonizing.
7:17 PM. He said he would call by 7:00. Should I worry? Am I paranoid? Am I delusional? All of the above???? Times are hard, Times are hard. Self esteem has been at an all time low.
I went to see BD Wong speak. The guy from Law & Order SVU. He said something that clicked in my head and all of the sudden my eyes were filled with tears. It was strange. I never thought about it, it never registered what I was doing or feeling about myself until that moment. And I was overwhelmed.
1 comment:
glad to have you back LBG. now jamie has retained his place as the last person to blog!
you're a darling; people (boys, girls, hermaphrodites) can be so flaky sometimes. Even good people. We just all need to do better at being nice and mature to one another. Fortunately, most people improve with age ...
hope you enjoyed your trip!
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