I'm happy

Although things didn't work out with the Redneck. I'm happy about the situation...well, maybe "Happy" is too strong of a word. We don't talk anymore. I have emailed him but I have received no response. So I have to take it with the house motto of "It is what it is". I've always known that it would never work out between us and I have told him this several times in the past. He never really got why I would say something like this. I guess what it all boils down to was the fact that I was scared. Relationships are hard. If they weren't then all of us would be in one. And when you put the "800 miles" factor into the equation it just makes it THAT much harder. We were consistently talking to each other everyday at one point. And I think if we continued on that path one of us would feel emotionally cheated. And it probably would've been me. We would talk and even though he would say the nicest thing to me over the phone, the one thing that would make me happy at that point would be just to see him. But unfortunately that was physically impossible. We were doomed from the start and we both knew this. There were red flags waving at me back in March when this all began. We were discovering something new between us and making a new friend at the same time. I guess I missed what it felt like to have butterflies in my stomach. I honestly don't know what happened between us. And it was mutual. It just sucks that we have to go through this "ignoring" phase before we can be friends again. And sometimes that can take months or even years...Sometimes never. But I'd like to think we're better than that.

I just hope he's doing okay.